What will I create today?

Throughout most of my life I have been a lively, curious and outgoing person. I would do what interests me, I would take days off of work if I felt like it, I would see the world around me as a giant playground just waiting for me to play. A few years back all of that changed.image via mnn.com

Life caught up with me.

For a few years now I’ve been jaded. I’ve found it hard to have fun at anything that didn’t start with me drinking first. A wall grew around me and I started shutting friends out. I stopped hiking and camping, drawing and poetry, exploring both cities and nature. I viewed the world as a beaten down old man. I’m only 33 years old at the moment.

So much had happened to me over the years I believe it just finally caught up with me. I’ve grown tired and sore, I work more, I have people I need to take care of. Recently though, I wrote a novel. Like, holy shit! I wrote a novel!!! Yesterday I took pictures with my phone in a tunnel I was working in. I used to do a ton of photography and if I remember, was pretty good at it. I saw that tunnel as a playground and not my job site. I was walking back and forth looking at every little detail, trying to create beauty through a lens.

As I woke up this morning(a pillow smashed into my face, forcing me out of a lovely dream) I saw my bedroom a little differently. My lady looked just a little more beautiful than she has in a long time and even though we’ve been fighting, I wasn’t mad. This coffee I’m drinking tastes absolutely wonderful. The music I’m listening to, amazing.

img via flickr.comI realize now, as I type this, that I’m waking back up from a self imposed nightmare that was brought about by responsibility. The kid in me didn’t want to grow up and had been fighting back tooth and nail. Well, I am grown up and though I act accordingly, I put the kid on the shelve and in essence, put myself on the shelf as well. Today, all of that changes. Today, I am climbing back into my own skin and looking at the world through my own eyes.

I don’t know exactly how this realization came about. Maybe it was the novel. Maybe it was the pictures. Maybe both. I don’t know. What I do know is that right now, everything is brighter, more colorful than it has been in years. I’m excited for my day off.

What will I create today?

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A little photography amongst friends

Recently I took a short call, which means it’s only a two week job. Hey, it pays the rent, right? I just happen to be almost three miles deep in a tunnel, pulling fiber optic cable through vaults. Tons of fun! No. A lot of down time. Well, I was bored today while managing a large loop of cable, which, was being pulled very very slowly. As I meandered down the tunnel, I decided to do a little photography with my phone. Some of those I’m sharing today. All are done with just the Negative filter and a flash. No Photoshop editing except to resize and through my little copyright watermark at the bottom. I hope you all enjoy. Click on the image to get a larger view.

Img Via Nicholas Catron

Img Via Nicholas Catron

Img Via Nicholas Catron

Img Via Nicholas Catron

Img Via Nicholas Catron